Wig Fun...and then more torture...

"Friday August 13, 2021: Went to the doctor to try on some wigs. They were so awful I was just hysterically laughing, and the nurse looks at me and says I have never had anyone laugh so hard through this process and I told her they are just so ridiculous I can’t help but laugh. It was a funny experience. Not sure if wigs are for me. It is also important to note that Chemo isn’t just chemo one day, it’s a port draw the Friday before, the actual chemo Monday, and then another injection Tuesday for my white blood cells. It’s a process. It sucks. Red devil is the one I have to eat a popsicle. Total: 2 nausea meds, 1 steroid, 2 chemo cocktails

Thursday August 19, 2.021: It makes me so weak. It’s hard to even speak. Can’t eat, can’t drink. Can’t focus at all, not on a text or tv. I even notice some major twitching. Also, basic things don’t make sense, I say things I’m sure of and now they are wrong. It’s hard to breathe.

Saturday August 21, 2021: I feel like each chemo session a tiny part of my shine dies. Chemo literally feels like I’m dying. Tonight, Jon and Nataley came over. I finally laughed again and felt like myself. It was so needed!

Sunday August 22, 2021: I woke up feeling like myself (well as most of myself as I can). I knew I’d would be a good day. I wanted to make up our bad brunch experience last weekend and decided we should go to market street (I hadn’t been yet but have heard good things) and I was excited to walk the dogs with mama this morning. When we got outside there was such a magnification sky scape. Then, halfway through we get the lightest tiniest drizzle and I turn around to the most gorgeous double rainbow (I know that was my Grandma Paulette). It was amazing.

Monday August 23, 2021: I had to take mama Laurel to the airport today. It was sad to say goodbye but helped to know she is coming back in 1 month. The coolest: I SAW GRANDPA!!!! I finally got to see my Grandpa today after almost 2 years! I missed him so much!! We had a wonderful late lunch and were able to have good discussion. He is looking good, I am so happy!! I was real scared for a while there. Random night thought: What is a girl to do when you have taken away her vanity and left her bare?! Embrace it!"