Radiation Starts, work stress, and I AM AN AUNTIE...

"October 21, 2021:

I start radiation today. Nervous but I’ve got this!

October 24, 2021:

My niece was just born at 3:10am 5lbs 7oz and 18.5 inches long. 12 fingers 10 toes!! Extra fingers run in Tim’s family. My little angel Faith Rose

November 5, 2021:

Tonight, Rachel and I went to a Drag Show at the blue moon in Rehoboth and I had to get creative with outfits because I’m trying not to wear bras or anything tight because it’s irritating under my arm and boob from radiation. So, when they sing and you tip them here, we have to go to the front because they have a bucket on stage and where it was placed was in front of an empty table with chairs. Rachel just asked me how I felt going out with no bra and I said, “I cannot tell you how many times my big titty hit or got me stuck on that damn chair tonight.” I could have died. I will most likely have a bruise.

November 14, 2021:

Work is a struggle for me. I know I shouldn’t care what other people say about me but then laughing at and bullying me for being sick is just a lot to deal with. Pam is the ringleader and is just another Maggie. She has everyone convinced that my cancer isn’t that serious and that I’m exaggerating and Tim has them convinced that my time off work is spent out having fun and partying and Ron believes it all and talks shit about me to anyone that will listen including the new people (Leslie, Justin, and Heather). Pam has also talked about me directly to Carrie about how she understands my situation but me leaving early or taking time off is really hard for her and night shift. It’s all such bullshit. These people are literal pieces of trash and I keep trying to remind myself of this. I really hope this being my last night on night shift is the change I need for this all to turn around. I am hoping day shift is much better especially in regard to my energy and ability to focus.

November 18, 2021:

Man, I woke up feeling so bad. I am sooo nauseous. I started day shift yesterday which was a bit easier but I was so exhausted. Tomorrow, I have to go get my port checked out because it didn’t work the other day when they tried to do a port draw. I’m so nervous. I hope they get it and don’t hurt me or have to replace it.

November 21, 2021:

I have noticed for a while that swallowing was difficult for me but I chalked it up to the chemo and stuff. In reality I think maybe one of the surgeries or maybe even the chemo but something has messed up my throat. There is no pain or anything but it feels like half of my throat is closed. I cannot eat or drink as I normally would. I have to take small sips of beverages and small bites of food because I literally cannot swallow it. It is a very weird feeling. I also found that from the surgery to remove the cancer there was a nerve that was damaged under my arm because when I first had surgery it was very difficult to move my right arm in different positions or fully extend it. Now that it’s healed, I have full range of motion again but if I touch certain places in my armpit, it shocks down my arm. In regard to the radiation, my breast and armpit are red and slightly darker and my nipple and areola are affected and not happy. Luckily, there really isn’t pain. Just some weird things I am noticing."